「 loved you on 11:30 PM 」

SUP ALL!

hahahaha. wah, siii bei long never come in here liao leh. lol, i doubt anyone does. Well thats good! nobody come, nobody gets to see what i blog. wahaha.

You all think "si mi lai eh, got blog but dont want people see."

haha, actually, i also dont know why either.



Sooooooo, O's was over and i got 11 points. Not too bad ah, at least I improved. But the score still sucks. It's like not here nor there. Cant get into good JC's, but dread getting into lousier ones. So with prelims score of 15, ended up in PJ. Quite a good school bah, but i hope can get into AC. hahaha.

Oh, pj's also where i met _ .

ohkay, going off. See how bah, should drop by. soon. :D

「 loved you on 12:48 AM 」

mymy. I actually have to sneak up to use my dad's laptop to blog. lol, and this is like a one in a million chance cause he forgot to off his laptop. ok, so two of my homies know about this blog already. Hopefully it wont spread, and i don't want it to either.

anyways, life has progressed rapidly and i would have to pick up from where i left off. SA1. Fantastic results lah. Lol, if you sensed my sarcasm. Couldn't believe i got such results lor. Chemistry. I really have nothing so say lah. It's true I did 'drop' this subject during the preparation for the exams.. I just can't answer the questions! It's like, they asking for A i keep forcing B down their throat. Wth man. Chinese. Ahh, I also have nothing to say for this. Amaths. Wah, this subject is utter disappointment. I know that i can do it, but yet during the exams all the careless mistakes and blank answers start coming up. Goddamnit. There's also another subject that i'm disappointed in. Emaths. If i had been that extra wee bit careful of answers, and most probably less complacent, I could have easily got a B3 or at least a B4 to say the least.

Fantastic.

Lately, on tuesday, I went for dental. Amusing. Changed some malleable wire to some other not so malleable one. Wheee! Glad that it's improving. Very soon.. Very soon.. I'll have straight teeth! =] On my way back, the journey, was not that nice as I thought it would be. To start it off, I entered and stood near the MRT door. On my left is a malay and a chinese ITE students. On my right is another fat chinese ITE student. He was like smiling to himself or something. LOL. Then soon, I got it. The two are purposely pissing off the fatter one while the fat one is also trying to get back at them. haha. The malay one went to hit the stomach of the fat guy. In retaliation, about 2 seconds late, he slapped the air off his tummy. And gave the "JUST BRING IT" sign. lol! To avoid the scuffle that may arise later on, I took two steps backward.

Then later, a group of about 7 indian students came in. They were from some school near commonwealth MRT. Not too sure which one. Then, one of them took out her laptop and I think wanted to show something to her friends which is inside the comp. They stood right near the door, about some where i stood earlier on. They blocked the door while many other people tried to squeeeeeeeeeeze through the gap inbetween them. So fucked lah. I thought, its like, if you want to show ur friends stuff, why didn't you show them in school or at mac, or somewhere else? Why must it be on the MRT? And at the expense of blocking people's way? Lol. Conclusion: There is only 1 motive. To show off. Furthermore, when I peeked over, what i say was even disgusting. It was ONLY some pictures. Maybe you could give a reason that it's some important docment that needed to be shared but hey, pictures? What crap. I left at clementi station full of disgust.

Lol. So, this is just my second tale of the MRTs. LOL. For the first one, I think it was dated back till 2005 or 2006.

Dum dee dum.. On friday, went to jam with Wisteria again. Ah, not too bad lah. At least we still did jam right? Haha. Got to say I've become more nervous already. Keep hitting the wrong beats at the wrong time. Sorry lah. Daniel and Ximing came along. I don't know why. But it seems like when I play with them I'm always so not confident. It's like the facial expression. It's always wrong. Never right that kind of thing. And when I feel that we've improved, or done just enough, in the end, it's always not enough. His comments always never fail to demoralise. So, it's so fuck. I've got nothing to say already.

Oh shit, i gotta go now. Come back next time! Stay tuned!

「 loved you on 1:07 AM 」

HEY. Just come back to update lah. Today went to Jeremy house. Quite boringz, but the ps2 time was not bad. Junyang kena own by jeremy in NBA while I owned jy in MARVEL vs CAPCOM. wahaha. But in the end kenna owned back by jeremy, as usual. After that went to LOT1 with junyang. Talk cock lah. Ate LJS again, but bought cheese on my own. FINALLY! haha.

Then took 188 alllllll the way to westcoast. Mothers Day dinner. Not too bad was quite nice. Steak at the Jack's Place. Gah, came home and dotaed. lols. And for the third day I daoed cynthia agains. So sorry! hahaha.

Man, can't blog about sensitive stuffs. For the safety of my poor online biggie. for now.

「 loved you on 12:35 PM 」

Today, was a beautiful day. haha, ok not so beautiful yet.
Finally I came online to blog. Last few days were dota shit man. Kept dota-ing. Come home bath on computer, and dota. Dota dota dota. Break, ate dinner, then continued throughout the night. Frrrreeeaking tired man. Well anyways, yesterday broke the curse. The dota-lose curse. haha. Wonderful=]

Went to watch spidey3 yesterday. Actually, I had organised for it to be on saturday. But then Jiayong last minute call some of us to make it on friday. It's because he cant. He cant make it on saturday, so we must all be on friday. Like wtl? I was anything at that time so i followed suit with junyang lor. It sucked man. Seriously, gave face to him only so I came, or else I would be going on saturday. So the day went on as I thought it would have as usual. Jiayong haikal and shafiq hongqian always together. Then menghei casted to one side and me and junyang together. Wasn't all that bad either as hongqian did talk to menghei and me and junyang got talk to haikal shafiq also. But menghei, was quite evidently left out.

Then went to watch the show. I'd give it 7/10 bah. Quite nice, but also aint really that that nice cos some parts were predictable and confusing. Overall, nice.

After the show no body suggested going anywhere else so we headed to the mrt lor. Then after that shafiq say he wanna buy mama day present. So as usual jiayong and haikal offered to accompany him. But it was kind of obvious that it was for other reasons. Quite funny tho, that hongqian didn't follow. So junyang menghei hongqian and I headed home. Was quite a lame outing actually. Not to also mention the dumbass primary kids or maybe sec1 students making a din in the cinema. We actually had to shut them up afew times. Oh well.

I didn't know why junyang want to follow them leh. He said that he was tired to go out on a saturday but hey, why is he going to jeremy house anyway? We already made a pact that we would be going on saturday already right, then why he want to ps us and go on the friday. I too, don't know why i didn't stand strong in myself and insisted that we go on saturday. Sorry to xm, daniel and shaz for not following you guys.

I guess, our clique has splitted. We aint the e1ande2 boys like before already. It has changed. For god knows why we just hate each other balls. Going dota now, brb later.

「 loved you on 5:51 PM 」

Hay okay, today's soccer was great. But fuck, they 3 go talk talk sial.. then leave me alone. fuck seh 2 of them brothers 1 of them okok(well maybe not so ok) but then also never invite.. mama.. LOL. anyways, played soccer under the ever so scorching sun as usual. Not too bad i must say. Am I improving? haha. Anyways, xm jy and daniel went home i suppose. Then they dota bah.. yeh. Didn't play a game today. whoooo! Was tempted tho, but not many people, so didnt. GREAT! =]]]]

Gah, i forgot to reply cynthia again. lols. Crap phone. ZZZ I wanna get my father's phone, the N73. That phone RAWKZ! haha. Crap, with jiayong around, I really can't get much friends already cos he'll make them stick to him. Or maybe, he stick to them. oh whatever~

「 loved you on 8:02 PM 」

So uhh, i'm back to blog! It's gonna be about saturday and today.
Hmmmmmm, woke up freaaaking early. Way early than my usual saturday would be. Washed up, packed my bag, changed and was ready to go meet ximing. Then I thought to myself, hey, since I'm like always late to meet ximing, why not i leave earlier this time. Well, to me it was.
But in the end I was 5minutes late. And on the train I smsed xm and told him that I'm already on the train from JE to BB. That was like say, 2mins past 9.30. His reply was, "wtf u evertime late again"

WTF? I made an effort to come early liao and then he still say I late again? wa piang, I admit lah, i would be 5minutes late when i meet him at the busstop. But 5 minutes also cannot? ahh whatever~ So in the end he say meet at outside school and I took bus there lor. Went to school, it was open, the gates only. All shutters have been pulled down and the security guard was reading his papers. Ah goddamnit, I can't take my P.Geog txtbk while xm cant take his Bio text. So after that went to.. MAC DONALDS! papapapa~ lOL......

Ate freaking 2 macbreakfast and was full like godknows what. 1 bigbreakfast and 1 sausage mcmuffin w egg really made my day. Shaz came along and we chatted for about 1 1/2 hours. lol, just at mac. Then xm took a pic, but it ain't with me yet. zzZ. Following which I accompanied them to the barbers, or hairdresser whichever you may want to think it is. Slept there for like 10mins cos I was really damn tired. The day before played soccer for 4 1/2hrs rmb? Then took 941 and they accompanied me to cut hair! At the salon. Not too bad, altho my hair is kinda funny to me now. I still like the cutting style of the aunty. ^^

Shawn asked me want to go library or not so I went home to get my stuffs and went there. Met menghei, and the other girls. Oh, bigsaussage was there too! LOL. Alone. Then had to go to som e other place cause the girls wanted the seat. Oh, Jiayong shafiq was there too. Jiayong called Hongqian, who came later on. For rest of their activites maybe you could proceed to Jiayong's blog for the update. Then I finished up on my plate tectonics notes and went on to memorize population and others. Serious studied until like 8 like that luh. Shagged by then already. Then chat chat with them while shawn and his girl went.. uh uh... you know.

Met cynthia there too! hahaha. After that went to eat silvia's friday dinner. LOL. They said I bought the same one as hers. And proceeded home for dota~~ Crap man, teamwork really kills. JX and kenneth gay teamwork pushed the whole bunch of gay faggot creeps. Teamwork of potm and furion gayed us all. SA for the solo, deadmeat with gem. In the end lost lah. With jeffr4e actioning to buy dagon instead of pumping his serious item build. Gah, I also tried my best, but didn't go for the win.

Sunday! Woke up late. Then met shawn and went to library again. Talked more this time bah, altho there were many moments of silence memorizing of geography notes, again.. Then for the first time the girls wanted my geography notes. Lol, I couldn't believe my slipshot work could actually made them want it lahs. Handwriting so ugly, and some parts were really uncomprehendable without a textbook. LOL, hopefully they'll ace it thanks to me! eh~ lol, and also including their hardwork lah. ^^

Gosh, I overtimed myself already. Gotta go back to memorizing! Btw, this blog is still private! whooooooooooo=] May chelsea fall to arsenal.

「 loved you on 5:36 PM 」

Ah okay, I have decided to come back to blog again. But have changed url already. Blogger says cannnot use got - at the back one. supercrap lah.. anyways, how's life been going on for u guys? On the surface things are going on fine with me bah. Well, you should know.

Just in the middle of the exams lah. And things aint going that well i guess. No hope for history already man. Couldn't believe i actually attempted to go spot chapters. LOL. in the end write some crap about the japan war thingy. crap lahh! i wonder sia.. how yiying can write so fast. LOL, is it her small hands? or is it the fluid pen that she uses. ahhh, teach me how! haha, I realised, for her ss paper, history paper, english paper. SHE WROTE VERY FAST CAN! btw, fast, is tentative. Whats fast to me may not be fast to you.. HAHA. so please dont jump to conclusions. Good luck for all the rest of the papers!!

Went to play soccer today. Still okay bahs, never say much, just laugh alot at the blunders. Blunders still okay ah, just don't let in goals can already. Played since 9.30 like that? LOL, play till 11+ and went mac to chill. Felt.. Itchy. Haha. So went back to play. Omgs, play till like 4 like that. Junyang actually came. wtf. Tired, tired.

Anyways, looks like the coldwar(or should it be called that way in the first place?) is heating up. Ain't cold no more. Sphere's of influence. oh whatever. Jiayong and I, seems like we can never even speak. Even if were to speak, it would be either
a)in the form of shortforms, where -tea- and minortick is used.
or
b)jokes that aint really funny but meant to ridicule you.

It's just like that. He hates my guts, and seems like i hate his too. But hey, i'm actually okay with it, just that sometimes he just kinda suck. hmmm, like when he keeps bullying people? lol, maybe its a form of say, communication, but sometimes I feel it just crosses the line. Playing soccer is also another i guess. Very solo and don't really like to pass the ball i guess. Likes to keep the ball under his feet. But I feel, for a game of soccer to be played, it's 10+1 player. Which means it would need the whole team and not just a solo person to play it. And, his style of playing also. Very cheong, like don't wanna wait and strike on the right chance. Slowly, please, not so kan cheong. ah, just some conflicts.

But, I don't show it out to him. I don't tell him that "hey can pass more?" or "can play hum abit more anot". I dont know why either. It seems, like our commonities are just too many. I'm just like him also. But when I compare me with him, it always seems like he's alittle more untactful than me thats why I feel that I'm better, I guess. I don't show out my feelings about him to him. And neither does he. The respect i'm not getting cause he's aint giving me any. Not to say that I don't give him either, but, at least I know for some instances I do.

A few months ago it was improving. Not until, I guess not until, hongqian started randoming me. HQ kept saying i'm random and whatever stuff. Then the used to be '3 of us' became the '2 of them'. And now also inclusion of yewtong and yewsiang. ah, whats wrong?!

Maybe lets say i'm willing to change. I have to admit, i'm kind of biased towards him than to other people. But i'm willing to change. I am willing to try to shut off those thoughts. I am willing to pass the ball more often to him. I am willing to tell him that hey lets play the game slower, shall we? I am willing to throw away the childishness and self-mindedness. But will he? If he would, there would be peace between us.

I guess it all started when I liked yiying and he did too. I would 'badmouth' him and impress her. So did he. Then, the thing started becoming worse and now, it's like this. He will try to hit on friends and I would too. It has become something like manipulating them. Controlling them. Making the other party lose out. To feel lonely, left out. I guess thats the way it is. Will things become better? I do hope so, but stay tuned.

anw, his latest post, on 02May, his last part, i'm positive, was refering to me.